My battery is at 15% on America’s loneliest highway


All morning we have been listening to a loss
speeding out in ambulance howls and the muezzin’s contralto.
Let us be known in the shape of bell jars
that are hatching the first firmament of swallowtails.

I can speak but only as a prelude / to a serration.

It is true that a crow has no other name but that of a crow.      
Take these words - the smooth black of each skipped stone                   
against the kaleidoscopic river of my grandmother’s lac bangles.

English is clinical.  Urdu is karmic.

If you open the box then a body with its veins torched black.

A mosaic of psychopomp.
An unapologetic rattling.
A spider sexed in amber.  

Against the ontology of bed linen, a rapid argument
with theorems of knuckled moans. Sleep is an ache
I can’t body or ghost.  Any nostalgia is alms
for unfolding a mind disembodied in deus ex machina.
Still we measure the consummation of years
thumbing an index of frugal keepsakes.  

Here is a forgetting        how the wind imitates   
                                      my grandfather’s coughing steps.

Here is a newness            a 12 year old asking me -
                                      how do people who come back from a coma remember
                                      which body is theirs?


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Scherezade Siobhan is an Indo-Rroma behavioural scientist, community catalyst and hack scribbler of 2 poetry collections - Bone Tongue (Thought Catalog Books, 2015), Father, Husband (Salopress, 2015) and 1 poetry pamphlet - to dhikr, i (Pyramid Editions, Forthcoming in 2017).  Her work has been featured, translated and published internationally in galleries, anthologies, bios of okcupid users as well as literary journals such as Rattle, DIAGRAM, Berfrois, Wasafiri, Word Riot amongst many others. She is the creator and curator of a cross-cultural, global dialogue space in form of "The Mira Collective" that raises voices, awareness and funds to fight gendered violence and street harassment. She can be found squeeing about militant bunnies at www.zaharaesque.com or @zaharaesque on twitter/facebook/ig.